what depressed people do.

I'm bored and somehow without any reason, depressed all of sudden.

L

some not important words

I'm bored, 

and when I'm bored my mind flies to the figure that I adore 

his smile, his face 

his back, his way of doing everything

I never see them anymore 

are you okay now? 

I was so young back then I don't know what did I feel toward you 

now that I realized it's not too late 

I want to say these words I want to say badly, 

I miss you. 

saw you for the first time was like a joke 

a garbage that  I left behind

I never understand what I felt toward you 

I didn't know how to make it up to you. 

are you okay now? 

I was so young back then I don't know what did I feel toward you

now that I realized  it's not too late 

I want to say these three words I want to say badly 

I miss you. 

those long messages 

those nagging words 

those voice of the loneliness and hurt

seems like a memories that I couldn't even remember 

how did I break your heart? 

why I was like that? 

maybe this is why. 

you seems have been lonelier that anyone 

I hope it's not too late now 

that I want to say..

I miss you. 

forgive me. I was so young back then. 

my own strength~

everytime I go to somewhere
I try to smile, give my biggest
even on the hardest time
no one knows
not even me
I don't understand myself
how to understand people
I guess I need to learn to grow up
it's not my dream to keep living in childish way

I'm my own maker
I make my life
I make my life as beautiful as I want
but in case I get something in the way
I'll use my own strength
neither people would help or stay in trouble
why am I even being too confident now?

no rainbows without rains
even when a baby born, it cries first before finally made it to see a beautiful world in front
I'm often to feel a little bit sad
but then again it won't change anything
as I grow up I become wiser
cheer up what I have now, and pray that something would happen for good.

Sorry, I'm Sorry

for someone who had given me so much love but it turned that I couldn't love you as much as you did, this song is presented how I felt.


again today you say pointless things
why are you doing this to me? why are you stressing me out? 
things can't be always good everyday
but you say that I'm changed when I'm just whatever these days
will you understand me with your wide heart? 
will you wait a little for me with your big heart? 

yesterday you said it several times 
you ask me where I'm looking at so blankly 
at your question, which I can't answer 
I just hang my head low and shed tears 
then with sadder face you look at me 
you look at me as if you know something is up

I wanna say I love you 
I wanna say I love you 
but I think I'm not ready yet 

I wanna say I love you 
I wanna say I love you 
but I guess I'm still thinking of something else

 everynight everyday everytime, even when I'm with you 
 everynight everyday everytime I still think of him 


Sorry sorry I'm sorry baby 
I'm really sorry 
Sorry sorry I'm sorry baby 
everything, 
everything is my fault. 

-C-real-Sorry But I