My First ~ ^^: June 2013

I care..

I don't only care about myself TBH
I care about 13 people
and
animals~
and
yeah..like
....
10.000 fictional characters u__u;;
<3 ne sarang!

everytime I go to somewhere
I try to smile, give my biggest
even on the hardest time
no one knows
not even me
I don't understand myself
how to understand people
I guess I need to learn to grow up
it's not my dream to keep living in childish way

I'm my own maker
I make my life
I make my life as beautiful as I want
but in case I get something in the way
I'll use my own strength
neither people would help or stay in trouble
why am I even being too confident now?

no rainbows without rains
even when a baby born, it cries first before finally made it to see a beautiful world in front
I'm often to feel a little bit sad
but then again it won't change anything
as I grow up I become wiser
cheer up what I have now, and pray that something would happen for good.

confession #1

i'm so in the mood in finding pictures and words, and I'm so wise at the moment. OTL joke I just have nothing to do eue <3
enjoy the first confession!
picture credit as tagged and google-

Sorry, I'm Sorry

for someone who had given me so much love but it turned that I couldn't love you as much as you did, this song is presented how I felt.

again today you say pointless things
why are you doing this to me? why are you stressing me out?
things can't be always good everyday
but you say that I'm changed when I'm just whatever these days
will you understand me with your wide heart?
will you wait a little for me with your big heart?

yesterday you said it several times
you ask me where I'm looking at so blankly
at your question, which I can't answer
I just hang my head low and shed tears
then with sadder face you look at me
you look at me as if you know something is up

I wanna say I love you
I wanna say I love you
but I think I'm not ready yet

I wanna say I love you
I wanna say I love you
but I guess I'm still thinking of something else

everynight everyday everytime, even when I'm with you
everynight everyday everytime I still think of him

Sorry sorry I'm sorry baby
I'm really sorry
Sorry sorry I'm sorry baby
everything,
everything is my fault.

-C-real-Sorry But I

Maranatha's Princess ~ ^^

with besties and dewi's besties ^^

like artists 8D

weirdos~

aren't we beautiful? xD

with Bang Edgar

waited for car -n-

maranatha's favorite princess Zita~ ^^

I move on.

it hurts me everytime I think of you.
it hurts me everytime I log in and you log out.
it hurts me everytime I think of you neglect me.
it hurts me everytime I see your face.
it hurts me everytime I get anxious about you.

no matter how long I will wait
you'll never gonna be mine.
what for waiting? I'm not worth it on your face on the first place.
what for waiting? you never think of me even once.
what for waiting? I wish I could do magic and made you like as much as I do.

I decided to move on.
no, not because I don't care anymore.
not because I don't like you anymore.
not because I'm tired of what I'm doing about you.
I did because, I'm not worth it for you.

in the end I move on because I'm never gonna be yours and it hurts me even more.

Mas, I loved you, I still do. but things never get any better between us. I wish someday you'll know how much you meant to me and how much you've been in my world. I wanna thank you for changing me into a better person.

if its not because of you, I might not be a better person for tomorrow. you're not the biggest reason but you're one of those important reasons why.

will it change for you if you never knew me?
will I be okay now?
I'll never be as okay as before, but I pray, that I'll be okay, in the end.

I pray for your happiness as well.
please be happy, even later I'll be so much jealous of the girl who will be holding your hand.
please be happy.
I have no regret of knowing you.

fall in love with you WAS the best feeling.

but what I said was bulshit...

Tembagapura~

lets take a look to my little hometown.
cr: google and privates.

I wasn't born here, but this place has been the best for me all the time.
I'm not one of the origins, but people who I've met here have been the best family I could wish for.
15 years in this town, memories~ happiness, all the pictures play like in the video ^^
15 years in this town, friends, that I've been with from kindergarten up to graduation.
15 years in this town, how I wish I could go back in time I repeat all the good times.
15 years in this town, school, sporthall, community hall, gym, library, shopping, hospital, mosque, church, all the things I saw...
I miss my little town

then enjoy some of Tembagapura pics here I got from any sources as tagged and google, some are mines :)

17 Things I like to do ^^~

1. Eating! because we need to keep our health ;D

2. sleeping! sometime we need to run for a while from this wild life ouo you just need a little rehab.

3. Coffee-ing. another sleepless nights, either when I can't sleep or I just want to stay up late or fighting for exam!

4. dreaming, one of the best way to keep my mind happy! no, not because I want to escape the real life. just some refreshing ouo

5. being hyper, weird and awkward, everything comes naturally ;D

6. observing, it is different from stalking -u-

7. Free things, free food, free love. anythings free ;D but if I can buy your love, no matter how much is it, I'll
buy it hahaha jk ._.v I can't buy love, even though I could, if we're not meant to be, no need to force anything that it's not yours from the first time.