Counting Blessings!

psikologi positif lagi gencar-gencarnya ada di kampus, satu hal yang membuat saya pribadi dengan psikologi positif adalah konsep untuk tetap "positif"
to the positive in all of us,

it's not easy indeed, to be positive in all aspects in our live, live sometimes gives us lemons when we arent asking for that, getting sad, angry, dissappointed, no, we are, never, once ask for that in our lives, but it's not the point. that, too, something that we cant avoid, it just comes without even we notice it. but sometimes too, we are too stupid to predict what will happen next in out future, like, for the simple example, we know that we have exam tomorrow, but we dont study (like what im doing now), this concept of positive psychology doesnt work here e u e

one thing that caught my attention since the very start knowing about positive psychology is gratitude, lets forget about theory and science now, it all can be read in books or websites,
what i'm going to pour here, pure subjective.

its not easy actually to be grateful, in everything. even if i sing a song that always reminds me to be grateful, i, too, still find it difficult to be grateful for what i have, not for what will i have.
i learn so many things in my 21years old, that you cant bring past back, that even one second passed its already a past. either its happy or sad, either it makes you wanna punch someone or nah. why should we be grateful? thats the question right? what would we get? is it the same with thankful?
im not a spiritual person, not too, religious. but i know, how it is important to be grateful for myself.

to every second i've had, to every breath i take, for having such parents, and friends.
for having a life like this. i dont always realized how much i actually grow, until night comes and i pray, and i say to God, thanks for today, and then i ask myself again, what did you even have today?

actually the last one, that makes me realize how and why should  i be grateful? for the next mornings that i dont know will i have or not. why should i be grateful? in can increases the well being? the theory said ( Emmons and McCullough), but if i look inside my heart again, it's not the reason why should i be grateful, it much more how i thank, for all i had and have, i might not be happy just saying im grateful, but for thanking for something given to me, on a purpose or not, makes me relieved.